I spend my week doing nothing meaningful. Be it work or cca or personal life, I feel that I'm a failure.
My assignments, although I'm given lots of time to do them, I still hand up sloppy works. It might be a nice work that the lecturer comment on but to me, I still think that I can improve further. (I know my standard isn't that low) I keep pushing assignments away because I feel sick and can't stare at the screen for too long. Why am I so sick and weak after I come to poly??
I hate the state that my body is in now. Falling sick once every few weeks... Lack of sleep causing me to feel bus sick and lower down my immune system... ... Poly life is just way to different from secondary school. I have to change and blend in with the environment, I can't keep thinking that I am still in secondary with the 6pm max go home kind of thinking. In poly it drags to 10pm, 11pm. Sad case, my parents still thinks at secondary thinking.
My cca, maybe authority takes time to build up, maybe it won't... However no matter what happens, I must make them know me and Eugene are leading. I won't let what my parents say affect me. I will show them that I am capable.
However now, I am still at the stage of no authority, sickly, not enough sleep... Why am I so fail?? D: