After the meeting yesterday and some discussions about 'somethings'.
I conclude that I wasn't good enough... I can't do things wells... I can't even handle my own problems well so nuff said. The stories told were motivational enough, I began to reflect on my doings and all... I began to realize, I'm deproving... Not improving anymore.
Maybe what my parents said were correct after all, that I didn't plan everything well and never think of myself first before anyone... I cannot even take care of myself... How can I even take care of other people?
See, even my parents don't believe in me. Who will stand by me from now?? Who really understand me??
And seriously, I don't want to think of that but looking at the current situation, I could not help but to just stare blankly and... I want to break down but I need to stay strong - at least in front of my mates, I need to be strong.
What lies ahead in the future? Can someone enlighten me what to do?? What will be my next step?? Will the checkmate be said by me?? Can I even plan out my correct moves??
Can I?? Can I??
Can someone tell me what will happen in the future?? I am seriously worried about what's going to happen next... GOSH TELL ME. CAN I DO IT??