This is gonna be a dense post. So everyone please be prepared and emo with me. TY.
I can't believe that my questioning about life is stil unsolved... And I thought I never have the urge to solve the questions either way so yah. I don't want to solve them because I don't want to feel hurt and I guess this is how I protect myself from all the emotional stress I guess? Its all happening fine until my parents start to doubt me! I was damn sad and find it so ridiculous! Absurd man!
My parents doubting me seriously means that they don't trust me. I feel kinda hurt and they say that to me. It makes me start to question all the unanswered questions that I have in my mind and I start to think a lot... On a cold rainy night.
I have no courage to answer all these questions and some questions just seems impossible to answer. And then a lot of things will start going around in my mind... I start imagine all the nonsense things that won't ever happen unless at parallel universe...
I can't see my future. Does my future holds anything meaningful?? Will I get to see tomorrow?? You won't believe that I actually think like that. People see me as a happy go lucky girl and I want to really be a happy go lucky girl but in the end, it's just not going to happen. I am actually emotional and I hate that. Some wrong answers and replies from people might just get me to have all the sad thoughts again.
I don't want to be like that! I want to snap out of that stupid emo personality of mine. Please don't doubt me anymore, if I have I will say out myself. Don't ask me this kind of stupid things anymore! I don't want to go back to how I am before.