They will do and feel things like a robot. Doing what is supposedly the 'correct' way.
I am typing this based on recent experiences. Gotten to know the details of my project grouping and scoop today. The whole new idea of it is screwed up. Seriously it is. What was initially planned was all scraped off. And lecturers expect us to form a new team immediately, 3 people per group. D: From 5 to 3. How pathetic is it??
Other than grouping, there's also the concept thinking part. We have the greatest concept in mind but we have no technologies to deal with it! Scrap ideas again. We could start off learning it but it would be tedious, not say its IMPOSSIBLE. Its POSSIBLE to be done.
Also... I feel that the roles distribution is not right. Why am I the project leader again? Shouldn't I be the technical director instead? Since my programming skills are decent and good. O well... Since no one is suited be project leader, everybody turns towards me. =.=;;
Uber burdened by that. Since I am the project leader but I cannot do up a decent job in giving out ideas. How weak am I? Plus did I mentioned that I have gone stupid pass these years? How can I be that happy as before??
Other than school work, other factors also gotten my heart. I feel insecure and unassured. Constantly doubting myself if I did a correct choice or not. Doubting myself if I had changed emotionally and mentally. All these build up a barrier inside my heart. I sealed my heart nicely, building up a brick wall to protect it from being hurt. That means to stop feeling so emotionally too. Not too happy and not too sad.
Thats why past few weeks, I am feeling rather emotionally disrupted. Laughing hard at one time and feeling empty at the same time. Trying to laugh off my sadness and creating the happiness that I felt several months ago.
Freak that didn't even work out well. =.=;;
I guessed I am too concerned about how things were after all. To the extent of harming and protecting myself. Now I can't just undo it. I will probably be blown by the positiveness and died inside.
Possible...