Let me just list out the things that I have to do by tomorrow afternoon.
1. The interface design of my design
2. My portfolio analysis report (10 websites)
3. My interactive design document
I have NOT done analysis report YET. I am going to just die from all the stress coming up later from tomorrow onwards.
The stress of week 8's pitching... This will determine if our idea woud be accepted by our sponsors or not. This will also determine if we will be freelancer for week 11 onwards or not.
To be honest, I have no confidence that our idea will be approve. In the first place, I don't even know if I want our application to succeed or not. If the idea is accepted, we have shit loads to process out. If we don't, we will be just wasting the 8 weeks burning our brain cells on this bloody idea that is not going to work.
So how is it? In my mind, I am blank. Just blank. No idea of my future on this project. Maybe like what Yu Xuan suggest, might as well ditch our project and be freelances and help out other groups.
Serious I have enough of myself slacking for the past few weeks and I really curse myself for not controlling that playful mind of mine. I have enough of all this shit but how am I going to climb up again... I have no idea.
Think. Think. Can I avoid this? Can I just go into my lala land permanently? Barred from all the social networks and internet influence and just be myself in a cottage in the woods. With no one to contact me and me not needing to think of anyone or anything. A blissful life that I really want.
If this world accepts people with no education or qualifications, I would wish to just drop my studies now. ;___; This year 3 is so tough and I am now barely surviving. ;____;
I need a getaway to my lala land...