I am really changing for the worst. I am getting more and more annoying to the extent that I offend practically everyone that I talked to.
I couldn't understand conversations and cannot really keep up to people's thinking and couldn't keep my thoughts a secret.
So I ended up annoying everyone by cutting off some of the conversations... Being loud... Incredibly loud in class. SHIT I am like another annoying 'she' in class.
Why I did all these is due to me desperately want to change myself to the better; more outgoing and confident. I realized I am doing all that in the wrong way. I wanted the demure-beauty-lady-queen type of personality but end up I am like the crazy-unglam-irritating-auntie type. /shots
I am really getting a bit annoying to other people. I start to be a bit too 'naive'. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. /shots x2
I MUST STOP being so loud and wanting to be noticed. And also STOP being that desperate. I am really that desperate and my randomness at times is really damn irritating that I often questioned myself WHY must I disturb people??
Am I that of an attention seeker?? And being a partial 'Kuki Yomenai'. OTL