I saw you today, I don't know why, I just avoided your eyes.
I wanted to just try to look at you and say HI or just smile at you naturally but its hard.
What ifs like,
"WHAT IF he don't recognize me?"
"WHAT IF he didn't see me?"
"WHAT IF he saw me but he wants to avoid me?"
"WHAT IF he finds me weird and hates me?"
So many WHAT IFS just to look and say HI to a guy. Worst is when he misses/ignore me and I end up like an awkward person smiling and waving to the air... =A=
You always have the pretty and hyper lovable girl beside you but she isn't your girlfriend. :/
I just cannot find a right time to say HELLO or smile to you... Its always the girl who catches it instead...
For all the Japanese related events, you will always be there and I will just intentionally avoid you... Just fearing that I will be socially awkward or something sad might happen. Or worst, when you couldn't recognize me. That would be a great shock for me that might that days for me to recover...
We literally cross paths without you knowing, (I think??) so drama like. :/
We have SO MANY mutual friends we both just DO NOT cross paths. How un-fated are we?? Even if we did cross path, like at COSFEST, I would be either out from clique or standing behind someone listening to your conversations and when I wanted to pop out and say HI, you/I had already left...
Uhhhhh arghhhhhh gyaaaaaaaa!!!! But I do have great hopes on you to not forget me, because initially it was you who remember me when you just saw me. I was awed by that. So I hope you will still be the same old you, who remembered me...