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Guahhh this isn't getting anywhere >.< Not within this few months and maybe forever. D:

This is destined and damn you fate... :/

The whole issue is plainly, I don't want to try. Fear of getting rejected and embarrassed... I can't put down my pride to do that. This is just just too hard for someone like me... I need to totally get humble and start from scratch.

And once again, maybe it is really fate.