Finally... After 2 days, everything is over and done with. Rejected him and now I feel so relieved! Seriously now I know how to make my life easier. Just reject those that you really have no feelings for... Even you liked before but that doesn't mean that you will now. Just not the right timing, meaning no fate lor. As simple as that.
And also I realize that being single is fing good. First, after I reject, I realize that the whole burden/thing/scale down in my mind disappeared. Like poof! Seriously never ever held such a heavy burden in my life before. Second, after clearing up and telling people officially that 'I reject you so get over and done with it', makes me feel really relieved for some reasons that I can't explain.
Maybe I am really that dense and I have not experience love yet, I know I never will ever want to be in this terrible relationship cycle again, having more than 1 people liking is fking stress. Even more stress than chionging my assignments last minute. I swear to that, even programming is less stress x100 to this scary thing.
And I also realized I might be a really really weirdo who is overly optimistic about things in life and my life revolves around friends more than anything. That is just me.
Anyway, PROBLEM SOLVED! I am so damn happy I tell you.