I can swear I am at the verge of crying today afternoon. Some conflicts happened within our group and it was chaotic I swear.
The story goes like this:
We need a permanent place to do our final year project but we had yet settle for one yet as the place we were allocated to was filled up. So me and the other group went over to the other side of the room to find a place. We were not suppose to go to that place as it is by right not for us to use but for the other teams specializing in Digital Animation.
However we had told out lecturer that we had no choice but to use that room as the previous rooms were all occupied. So technically we were given 'permission' to use the Digital Animation's room. It went well till we get to know that there are actually people using that seats that we were sitting at but the problem is, for the past 2 days, we had been sitting there and no one chases us out.
Whats more we had already been given permission by the previous group to take that seat up.
Till now no problem right? Everything is going fine right?
That is when the problem comes in!! 2 of my members were not happy that we took their places as the group who let us sit that place took over other team's seats!! Nobody and nothing was there to mark their territory nor was there even names written on it!
Cannot really blame them for taking up that seat right? Our initial seats were being snatched away BY THE FREAKING SAME REASON too. Not once but twice. We decided to let the matter go but since now everything is happening to us. Not them but us!
Who is there to pity us? Who is willing to give back our seats? So please don't be so pissed and technically speaking we DID get permission from lecturer and he has given approval and NOBODY had chase us away from that seat for the past 2 days! So stop worrying for others first. Save ourselves first.
Even if you helped them, they won't be kind enough to help us back. And whats more, we are creating troubles for ourselves. Freak that seriously.
Seriously at the verge of crying before lunch and I felt so fail as a leader. I am at loss. I want to give up and quit now. 3 different parties in my group is the worst! Considering you only have 4 pathetic members in total. =.= And I am sandwiched in the center!
Stop saying that you want to suicide! You cannot help it when you have no choice to go! You still have to face the reality sooner or later! If you call this a suicide, I would had just died years ago!! And stop saying about suicide and deaths in front of me. You have no idea how much stress I had today morning? Verge of crying. How tough was it for me?
And as a leader, I had to recap about all the things I had learnt and experienced. Acting like this today was really a disgrace in front of my members, making them losing trust in me.
How long can I last till I go crazy?? Well, that you shall see with me!