I cant believe that I miss my school. D:
I miss going school and I miss my bubbly friends and I miss my lecturers and I miss my assignments and best of all, I miss rushing for assignments. =A=
That must be so weird to all and me but then that is what I really felt. Just because rushing assignments and doing assignments makes me feel more busy, human, smarter and young. Im not kidding here.
You see now I am just slacking at home everyday, turning stupid as the days goes by because Im not even using my brains. Locking up at home cos I have no money left and then send all the resumes but no one gets back to me. I so ashamed of myself. I cannot face people and the world that uprightly anymore. I understand a hikikomori more and more as days pass.
I miss school just cos Im more active back then. *cough*
I dont laze around at home and wake up at 9.30am. Im not spending my life away rotting at home. Im not waking up and expecting nothing. School is where adventures were hidden and ready to be revealed!!
Maybe this might be like inappropriate but at least you dun have to wake up everyday and then to find nice decent clothes to wear for work! IN POLY, u can anyhow t-shirt and shorts and slippers and lupsup go school. (Might not be a recommendation tho)
Now I have to freak over what to wear for work the next day and what should I do to land myself employed and shit. So much stress, not mentioning that i have no income lor. Feeding off myself. FUCK ME SRSLY. Sometimes I just hate this aspect of me. wtfwtfwtf