This feeling.
Again.
お久しぶりだ.
Last felt more than a year ago. I thought it will not come back. Yet it did.
The feeling of anxiety, mixture of nervous and scared. Seriously, this is not a small issue. It is hard to cope and you can feel your heart just churning and feel up to your throat. Pretty sure want to drop into self denial but it is hard to even do that. I am not sure why I felt that. If you say that is love, I am going to stop loving. This feeling is making me go crazy and it feels horrible!
No confidence to proceed on because not sure how long will this last. Let hope this ends tomorrow or the day after. Then no one would get hurt or no one will know this person. Nobody get hurts or what ever.
It is just that hard to start confiding this to someone... Really embarrassed and not sure how u would want it to turn out... ...