Attended a friend's brother's wedding. Thanks for the invite.
So while catching up on each other's life, we talked about our future wedding plans; venue; budget etc. However all added, it is impossible for the next few years. (all singles catching up hahaha)
Then we all were sighing about how hard is it to be in a relationship anytime this time because of work and how workplace have no potential partners. Which is true and no one wants to get involved in a office relationship. (#1)
And also on Friday, had some HTHT with a friend and we all also talking about how we have no chance to get into a relationship because our prime had pass. LOL. Hey it is kinda true! While talking about how we all had pet peeves about things that guys do that turn us off, I instantly realize that there is no hope for me. EVER. (#2)
I used to think that living alone and growing old alone is a good thing - abundance of freedom, money, space. Well, I still think that is, just that, I will wish I have one person beside me who will accompany me through at times. Not bounded by marriage, just a relationship. Because I suspect that being a full time office lady have a huge impact to this thinking. Especially when everyone is either engaged or attached. Plus work is super stress, you just want someone who will listen to your vents. I feel really bad if I disturb my friends with my vents and scared that they will slowly back off from me. D:
And when all the stores are filled with couples on a Friday night and I am alone shopping there. It is too much and I am sure all single ladies agree to this =_____=
Hence me and the friend was so sad and lonely and we hung onto each other and talked about the past, the future and now. Things that I was once afraid of saying came out and I was not afraid to talk about it. Well. Nothing will ever come back to me so I guess it's fine. /shrugs. I missed my chances but I am somehow glad I did. Although I might have the slightest regret, I am still glad that I chose that. Right now, I looked at them and I just cannot imagine how I would turn out to be if things were the other way. I would probably be irritated out from their actions.
And all the usual problems circling around. Things just do not seem to die down for us. TAT
This is it. Come on, we are only 21! Our area of focus must change since we know that we will not be involved in any relationship problem in the next few years. Chiong study or what ever. Be confident and a smart and pretty young adult. /flicks hair.