I am so angry at myself for not achieving anything and not once brought any trophies back home; then I see some same age people around me accomplishing so many things, awarded with shit loads of throphies...

Their goals, hobbies, dreams... They are achieving it. They are working at it. What about me? Seriously what am I doing with my life now? I declined a potential good experience job, I said I am working out but I do not see much improvements, I am studying for my exams but I have no freaking idea what my notes are saying.

In other words, I would say that I am neither clever nor having a big name out there. I am just a damn simple girl living here and waiting to grow old and die. Obviously I do not want that!!

Heck, with my half skill in piano, nail painting, drawing, design, I can choose to perfect them correct? With my noobish appearance, I can train out to be a swimmer, runner and rock climber correct? Learning back on TKD also works right? That ballet I learnt at 4years old, I should had force myself to finish it right?

So see, I gave up completing on so many things. I have no face to face myself. OMG how do I start to pull myself up again? The more I compare myself to others, the more I feel like getting thrown down and kicked and freaking punched. I believe my capabilities are endless and I have to change my freaking life.